When I was 22 I became fatally ill with severe ulcerative colitis. When I say “fatal” I mean I was clinically “gone” and revived in a small hospital in a small town in Italy during a family vacation. After refusing to leave my body I proceeded on a journey of discovery which led me to an amazing understanding of the way things work. No, I didn’t see any white light, I was determined to stay in this dimension.
When I asked doctors at UCLA and elsewhere what Severe Ulcerative Colitis was, they tried to tell me that colitis was either a) a virus b) hereditary or c) they didn’t know AND oh by the way if we remove your colon that’d cure you !! So many vague answers and no agreement between them told me that it was up to me to get myself well. Modern science had brought me back to the living however it didn’t seem to have any answers when it came to UC. Even today it still has no direct conclusions only describes symptoms and easily skewed statistics. The hereditary thing is used most often it seems. No one in my family ever had it to my knowledge.
I read everything & talked to everyone I could for answers. One day while at the library in Manhattan Beach , CA where I was living at the time, I found a few pages in a chapter in an old book . It described the story of Dr. William Beaumont and his patient Alexis St. Martin,
In 1822 Alexis St Martin had apparently been shot accidentally in a general store by a fallen musket. He was not mortally wounded but had a chunk of his skin blown away so that the lining of his stomach was revealed. Dr Beaumont saw this as the scientific opportunity it was and took him in to his own home to observe his digestive system and do experiments (you must read this site http://www.james.com/beaumont/dr_life.htm to get a glimpse of how much Mr. Martin actually contributed to modern science by allowing this) .
During his observations Dr. “Beaumont observed that being angry can hinder one’s digestion.” When St Martin was upset his stomach lining became red (vs pink when calm) agitated and stomach acids increased. Too much stomach acid can eat away & create holes in the lining of your stomach & colon. This was all I had to go on. So I decided I’d need to reduce the stress that was causing the acid that was eating away at the inside of my colon. Common sense right? Some tools & wisdom I had already acquired, but I wasn’t using them for healing yet. One of those tools was a paperback book I had called “The Silva Mind Control Method” It taught methods on how to use your mind to control the negative thoughts that cause stress thru meditation & affirmations. It was a valuable tool and put things in to scientific & logical terms so I respected it greatly. They’ve since changed their name to The Silva Method and have grown their product line (which I still use) immensely since those early days.
The other tool that was a huge help was a self-hypnosis tape I found at a bookstore created by Barrie Konicov & Potentials Unlimited Barrie’s Self Healing tape both saved & then changed my life. I’ve shared it several times with family and friends. I’ve been colitis free for many years with only 2 relapses in 30 yrs, but now because of these tools I’m very conscious of the WHY which has allowed me to know the HOW to get back on track quicker. I’m now healthier than I’ve ever been in my life.
Lastly another book that inspired me was “Anatomy of An Illness” by Norman Cousins. “As Adjunct Professor of Medical Humanities for the School of Medicine at the University of California, Los Angeles,he did research on the biochemistry of human emotions, which he long believed were the key to human beings’ success in fighting illness.” Lucille Ball (among many others), was a huge fan of Norman Cousins who also advocated for better nutrition. Our mind, thoughts and emotions are key to our well being, however remember that what we feed ourselves physically can also affect our mental well being. i.e. the large amounts of pesticides & hormones injected in commercial food today causing inflammation in our organs & free radicals causing cancer to an immune system weakened by stress . More on that in other posts.
I’ve since changed my life and thoughts from a negative, unhappy and angry perspective & taught myself to have a positive outlook on life. Its not what happens to you that matters, its more HOW you deal with what happens. I learned to love & laugh more, especially at myself, to stop being judgmental of others and I now have a hopeful, positive & grateful attitude about most every day experiences. Now don’t misunderstand, I still get angry but I release it in healthier ways now. There are new habits I’ve developed that have helped me accomplish this that I’ll share in future posts.
You are what you think You are ! Ask (think) and You shall receive (manifest). Just be careful what you (think) ask for . Make sure it’s positive and helpful to all concerned most importantly to yourself.
P.S. My colon is still intact. 🙂